Size: 8"W x 8"H x 1.5"D
Year Created: 2017
Ready to Hang
'Disorder' was created alongside 'Coping Mechanisms' the week I officially gave notice and left my position as a child protection worker. Prior to that, I had been on medical leave after finding myself in the hospital for a severe anxiety attack. I worked on myself for 5 months with the goal of returning to my position despite what my mind & body were telling me. The fact that this was the end of my time in child protection, and possibly the end of my career in the mental health field, was devastating. These paintings are the manifestation of my attempt to come to terms with this reality.
Born in Egypt and raised in Canada, my work is mainly inspired by my longing to capture the beauty, and balance the duality, of both cultures. I originally dreamed of being a fashion designer and pursued studies at The Art Institute of Vancouver before realizing that the distance may quite literally break my mother's heart. Moving back to Alberta, I shifted my focus to graphic design at NAIT before deciding that being a 'struggling artist' may in fact break my heart. So as a final attempt to keep my love for art & design alive, I declared a fine arts minor at the University of Alberta...before finding out that artistic all-nighters and psychology exams do not exactly pair well. However, after 2 years of using my social sciences degree in the social services field and coming close to adding an anxiety disorder to my repertoire, I returned to my first love for comfort. Like most rekindled relationships, it was an awkward start. But after a few arguments and many heart to hearts, it looks like this relationship will be a lasting one after all. The proof is in the paintings. (And ink pieces.)