Size: 9"W x 9"H x 0.05"D
Year Created: 2018
While facing a difficult challenge early in childhood, my interest in art begun to take form. I had a speech impediment—this fact was immensely frustrating, because when I attempted to channel my thoughts through spoken language, the words come out jumbled or in some strange voice—yet it was through this challenge that I was introduced to the medium of art as a refuge.
Growing up with a speech impediment was challenging and often socially isolating. I endured laughing and jeering from my peers. However, their roaring voices stopped echoing in my mind when I drew. I drew human faces because I did not want to be alone. These friends respected me. I felt an urgency to build a world for my friends to live in. I would draw elaborate pen and pencil drawings depicting all sorts of people, buildings, automobiles, dragons, planes, and anything else that came to my mind. This refuge gave me a voice, and I felt important. Art is the continual theme that holds my life story together.
My paintings serve as a means of communicating issues of personal identity and of the complexities of human experience. While painting, an intimate interaction occurs between me, the painter, and emerging figure. I investigate and portray the internal, emotional landscape of my subjects. My work is a hybrid exploration of figure painting and abstraction. In the cases where the gesture or lines of a whole body are rendered, the head reminds the focal point of representation as implied by its scale or its level of detail. While I use a variety of materials and processes in each project my methodology is consistent. They are linked by recurring formal concerns and through the subject matter. I look to the vocabulary of modern and contemporary art as inspiration. I do not plan the atheistic outcome of my artwork. I am sensitive to the demands of the painting. I go where the painting wants to go. I know when a painting is done when the painting itself can hold a conversation on its own; the colors are contrastive and there is a balance between spontaneity and control. I am deeply committed to lines and their properties. A single drawn line can express movement and gesture, and give direction and depth on a flat surface. I strive to convey these qualities in my drawings. I carry these disciplines into painting. Often times I incorporate lines into my paintings to add visual weight and to enhance the form. I often draw or paint many versions; I do this because I feel with every reinterpretation the work becomes stronger and the elements become purer.